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Finding The Silver Lining

By Kate |

In times of great sadness it can be hard to find anything positive. But, in this – probably the most difficult time of my life – I am clinging to the goodness. The silver lining in the horrible cloud that is this year.

Here’s how I see it: If my husband had not received a one year deployment, the kids and I would not have moved to Ohio.

If we had not moved to Ohio, we would not have enjoyed the benefits of living a mile from grandparents and extended family. My kids would not have gotten to really know their grandfather with the luxury of weekly dinners and unplanned visits. I would not have been able to comfort and cry with my family when we learned my father had leukemia. I would not have been able to tell my father “I love you” moments before he passed away last Wednesday.

I am going to cling to the silver lining – that I was and am here. It’s all that is comforting at the moment.

Well, the silver lining and the rainbow.

The day my father left the cancer hospital for hospice care my sister and I were driving home, depressed, and we saw a rainbow. There wasn’t a rain drop in sight but we saw a big, beautiful rainbow. Tonight, five and  a half weeks after turning to hospice care, four days after he passed away, this was in the sky:

Kate

Kate

Kate started The Shopping Mama™ in January 2009 when, after graduating law school, she traded in online legal research and writing for locating the best products for children. She shops three kids ages 7, 5 and 2 from their home in Germany. Her military family is making the most of the overseas assignment by traveling Europe every chance they get.

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    That’s beautiful! Do you think he’s smiling down on you? Do you think he’s proud of you and your sister, and your families? Do you think he’s waiting for the day when he can visit with you again?

    He’s in a better place, and in that place he’s pain free – and showing you hope. Using rainbows.

    God bless you girl! I haven’t experienced what you have, but I think it’s beautiful that you had the camera ready, and the words flowing today. Because of your father.

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    amanda alvarado

    {Hugs} I am so sorry for your loss. :-(

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    ShannonShannon Kelly

    My tears are welling for you. I’ve had those same thoughts about your move. Lots of love to you.

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    Huge hugs from me to you! There are no words to express how much my heart goes out to you!

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    Angel

    So sorry for your loss.

    My father passed away from cancer when I was 6 yrs old. My Mom always told me that when the light was streaming down through the clouds it was my Dad watching me. Everytime I see the light coming down from the clouds it is like he is here giving me a big hug even now 27 years later. :)

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    (((HUGS))) I am so sorry. I love the rainbow pics, he is watchng over you!

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    I just got some MAJOR chills. That’s your father smiling at you, giving you a sign that he’s okay and he loves you. I bet you will see more rainbows much more often as he keeps showing you that he’s with you and your loved.

    Your family is in my thoughts Kate! And I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Oh Kate I am so sorry for your loss. I am sure that is him sending beautiful rainbows. Big hugs.

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    I lost my dad 23 years ago. I still miss him. Sending you love and reminding you to be gentle with yourself. (((HUGS)))

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    My prayers and deepest sympathies are with you and your family during this difficult time.

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    I don’t mean to sound cliche, but I’m sorry for your loss. That rainbow is beautiful!

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    Sam

    I’m sorry for your loss, and so glad you were able to spend some time with him and say goodbye. Big hugs.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I know it is of little comfort at a time like this, but those times that the kids got to spend with their granddad will be a silver lining as you mentioned one day. My youngest was only a few months old and my oldest only 6 when my dad passed away over 5 years ago and it makes me so sad that my youngest two cannot even remember him.

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    Debbie

    Everything happens for a reason, and your move to Ohio is definitely an example of that. I’m so happy that you were able to spend time and make good memories with your dad before he passed away, and that your kids were able to develop good relationships with him. I’m happy that you were able to find the silver lining in such a difficult time. Love you!

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    I bet every time you see a rainbow from now on, you’ll feel your Dad’s love. I’m so sorry for your loss Kate and for the rough year you and your family have had. (((BIG HUGS)))

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    I’m so glad you were able to spend the time with your Father. All the things you did and said will be with you in your heart, and will help keep his memory alive for you.

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    So very sorry, thoughts, prayers and hugs to you an your family.

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    I so happy that you chose to move back to Ohio while Kevin was gone. Not only for the wonderful support during a difficult time but for you and your children to have gotten that time with your dad before he got sick. And while it can’t be easy to cope with the loss of your father and the deployment, there is certainly a silver lining. I’m so glad you can see something as simple as a rainbow and feel maybe a moment of peace.

    You really are a special person Kate and I hope that you continue to look for the rainbows. {hugs}

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    I wish there was something I could do…I’m so sorry for your loss

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    Definitely a silver lining that beautiful rainbow is. And a tender mercy that you moved back to Ohio and were able to be with him his final days. I don’t know where your beliefs lie in life after death or if this seems way to of line to say, I’m sorry – but I believe you’ll get to see him and be with him again. I wish you all of the strength in world right now, comfort, peace and most of all love. You’ve honestly been in my prayers and thoughts a lot this last week, and will continue to be. Much love Kate.

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    I think that is a beautiful silver lining. Wishing you lots of love and hugs. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    I am so sorry for your loss.. That rainbow is beautiful and I am sure your daddy is looking down on you smiling and so happy that he got to spend his remaining days with his whole family. HUGS.

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